A crow wing and the footsteps

 Pain and suffering are always inevitable for a large intelligence and a deep heart. The really great men must, I think, have great sadness on earth.”

― Fyodor Dostoyevsky, CRIME AND PUNISHMENT



I wanted to eat sweets today. In my daily life, I rarely take in sugar even cooking, and I hardly want to eat sweets, but it seems that today was such a day.



I brought Mont blanc and cream puffs at a nearby cake shop. On my way home, there was a crow wing falling on the ground, sticking to the rain-wet street.


A Wet black feather.


I received today's sign.


Black is the color of death.

And, a color with all possibilities.


There was certain study shows that the very negative topic of thinking about death increases the well-being of life.  To think about what can we do, what we want to do, and what we want to prioritize the resources of the most precious time that money cannot buy, until the end of death, that is naturally important to make up mind so.  It is quite natural in that it can be clarified.

The way of dying, is probably old is the best, ideal for me. It is no exaggeration to say that I maintain my health for that reason.  In my aspirations, my theme of how to die beautifully was into it in me as the best for one of those days. 


Thinking about the death penalty may also help reflect the way of thinking. As a result, it may lead to the improvement of the ethical and moral values ​​of society as a whole. At present, only five industrialized countries - including Japan and the United States - actively carry out executions and I am not sure about the exact number but 140 nations more or less had abolished capital punishment.


Supposed, I was the mother whose child was killed. If I were to be in this position, I would ponder the unimaginable feelings of how I could convince myself, I would go to defeat the murderer by myself, I would also see the darkness of my child, self-harm to melt in. In fact, before the Meiji Restoration, if you declared openly that you would go to kill them in retaliation, so called ‘’katakiuchi’’ or ''adauchi'' in Japanese, was legal, was not so long ago. Of course, I know this isn't possible under current law, plus it's self-serving attitude, complacency, and egoistic practice, and it's not a peaceful solution. you don't have to be a revengeful feeling meanwhile If you suffer, revenge is life, that is kind of honest gory bits of feelings. Now that I can't slay the enemy directly, I think there is room to think about how to manage revenge.


Often, some argue that friends and families of victims should deserve justice to be given execution and closure. Most of these people feel that the death penalty is the only way to compensate them for their loss. Allowing murderers to live must be an insult to them and the memories of their loved ones. However, can the feeling of loss of a loved one be compensated for by execution? Whether execution can be the right process and direction for the bereaved family - unfortunately an area beyond my imagination at this point -, and there must be tremendous amount of mental labor. However, the death penalty cannot be said to be yes.



The death penalty would be an appropriate punishment for such a terrible crime of ruthlessly malicious murder. the most of friends and families of victims hope for execution, but about the prison officer who would have to do it.  I think that some measures have been taken to reduce an undue psychological burden. many people don't feel  comfortable making critical executions like this on others, even so  a stressful situation for many. 



If imposing the death penalty is a long and expensive process and is not the only way to control murder, that is not appropriate in all. To abolish capital punishment reduces the chances of being punished for crimes that innocent people have not committed. There is always the possibility that innocent people will put to death for crimes they did not commit.



Returning to the universal belief of mine that suffering and sadness are not only about one person, but that the people around you who love you want to be happy should take in it.


If the execution is abolished, I think the price of those who survived with various complex emotions should be supported.


it is said ,presently, the light can be moving out of darkness around black hole

 

The main takeaway for me, who aims for a light world view and beautiful landscape that goes beyond sadness and despair, I don't think the execution will end my emotions.



And, a crow came to my balcony where it rained.


Next steps and new levels for respect. crows - with their footsteps





I might rewatch Dead Man Walking next week.





なぜか今日は甘いものが食べたい。私は普段の生活で、料理にさえ滅多に砂糖を使わないし、甘いものを食べたいと思うことはほぼないけど、今日はそういう日だったらしい。



モンブランとシュークリームを買った帰りに、地面にカラスの羽が雨で濡れた地面に張り付くように落ちていた。


濡れた黒い羽根。


今日のサインを受け取った。


黒は死の色。そして全ての可能性を持つ色。


死について考えるというとてもネガティブなトピックスは、人生の幸福度をあげると言う研究もある。今のところ、万人に押し並べて訪れる死という一つの終わりまで、何ができるか、何がしたいか、お金とお金では買えない一番貴重な時間という資源を、何に優先的に使いたいか明確にすることができるという点において、至極当然の話ではある。

死に方については、老衰がベストだろう、理想的だ。そのために私は健康を維持していると言ってもいい。自分の向上心の中に、どうやったら美しく死ねるかをテーマがひととき自分のなかでひとかに流行っていたこともあった。


死刑について考えることもその人の価値観を反映しやすいかもしれない。ひいては、社会全体の倫理的・道徳的価値の向上につながるのではないか。社会はあまりにも無関心である。現在、先進国で死刑を執行している国は、


例えば、私が我が子を殺された母親だったとする。このような立場になったとしたら、どう自分を納得させることができるどうか、想像を絶する感情を思い巡らすとすると、もし自分なら、自ら殺人犯を討ち取りに行き、自分も我が子が見た闇の中に溶けるように自害するだろう。実際、明治維新の前までは、仇をうちに行きますと公明正大に宣言すれば、敵討ちが合法だった時代が、そんな昔の話じゃない話じゃない、つい最近まであったのだ。もちろん、これは現行の法律では可能ではないし、とても独りよがりで、平和的な解決策ではないことも承知であるが、やられたらやり返すのが人生でしょ。と、そういったような綺麗事じゃない生々しい感情を傍に、敵討ちができない現在、仕返しのやり方については考える余地がありそうに思う。


よく、被害者の友人や家族には死刑執行の正義が与えられるべきであり、その上で事件が終結されるべきなだと主張する人もいる。殺人によって、誰かを失った多くの人は、死刑が彼らの喪失を償う唯一の方法だと感じるだろう。殺人犯を生かしておくこと自体、彼らにとっては侮辱に違いない。ただ、愛する人を失った喪失感は死刑執行によって埋め合わせができるのだろうか。死刑執行が遺族にとって、精神的な試練の適切なプロセスや正しい方向性になり得るかどうかは、残念ながら現時点で私の想像では届かない領域であることしか言えないし、途轍もない精神的な徒労を費やすことになるとは思うが、この点においても、死刑はイエスと言えない。



死刑は、冷酷に悪意をなされた殺害という最も悪質な謀殺という実に恐ろしい犯罪に対する適切な処罰だろし、遺族は死刑執行をおおよそ望むだろうが、誰かがやらなきゃいけないその死刑執行を執り行う刑務官についての考えは、どうなんだろうか。精神的負担を軽くする工夫はなされているとは思うが、やはりできるものならしたくない。



死刑執行に伴うコストと死刑が抑止力にならない、無実の人々が犯してない犯罪のために処罰される可能性があることを鑑みると、死刑は適切ではない。


悲しみや絶望を超えて、繰り広げられる軽快な世界観を目指す私にとっては、死刑執行で感情が終結されると思えない。



辛さや悲しみは一人のことじゃなくて、幸せになってもらいたいとその人を愛する周りの人も同じように請け負うことだという普遍的な考えに立ち戻ると、



死刑執行を廃止するなら、さまざまな感情を抱えながら生き残された人々の代償は、サポートされるべきだと思う。



雨が降るベランダに鴉がやってきた。